How incredibly short and surprising that life is. And just how precious it actually is. People always seem to take it for granted nowadays. We complain about the dumbest shit, when in actuality we’re all lucky to have another day to live.
I admit, I am one of those people. People bother me, homework bothers me, a lot of things get on my nerves. I get irritable sometimes. But today made me realize that I really do have it pretty good. I’m gonna do my best to appreciate every little thing that my life has to offer.
I’m gonna kiss my girlfriend like never before, and I’ll hug her like I’ll never see her again. I really do love her. And I’m gonna avoid fights at all costs. There’s really no need.
I’m not gonna lash out at my parents or shun my brother away.
I’m not gonna be pissed as shit in school just because I’m tired.
I’m gonna live life to the fullest, and never take another day for granted.
It’s really surreal how I just saw you last week at that party. You were so funny and seemed full of life. You and your boyfriend were messing around with each other and it was pretty funny.
Your boyfriend will never be able to see you again. I can’t imagine that. I can’t imagine not being able to see my beautiful girlfriend ever again.
Today opened my eyes and made me realize a lot. I see life in a completely different way now. I hardly even knew you, but I really do hope that wherever you are, it’s a better place than here. There’s a bunch of people here that love and miss you. And I really believe that things will be very different for a lot of people without you.
By the time I was your age I’d give anything to fall in love truly was all I could think, that’s when I met your mother the girl of my dreams, the most beautiful woman that I’d ever seen. She said boy can I tell you a wonderful thing? “I can’t help but notice you staring at me, I know I shouldn’t say this, but I really believe, I can tell by your eyes that you’re in love with me.” Now son, I’m only telling you this because life can do terrible things.
Now most of the time we’d have too much to drink and we’d laugh at the stars and share everything. Too young to notice and too dumb to care, love was a story that couldn’t compare. I said girl can I tell you a wonderful thing? “I made you a present with paper and string, open with care now, I’m asking you please, you know that I love you, will you marry me?”
Now son I’m only telling you this because life can do terrible things, you’ll learn one day, and I hope and I pray that God shows you differently.
She said boy can I tell you a terrible thing? “It seems that I’m sick and I’ve only got weeks. Please don’t be sad now, I really believe, you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me.”
Slow, so slow, I fell to the ground on my knees.
So don’t fall in love there’s just too much to lose, if you’re given the choice, I’m begging you choose to walk away, walk away, don’t let it get you, I can’t bare to see the same happen to you.
Now son, I’m only telling you this, because life can do terrible things.
Now I know why yous two became best friends last year.
You’re both fucking annoying, you both want attention, you both are spoiled so much but all you do is complain/bitch/moan, and you both aggravate me to the point where I wanna throw dead babies at you.
Well. To be honest I’ve never had a real Valentine. I’ve never spent an entire day with someone special on that day, and in all seriousness. I use to think it was the most bullshit holiday ever created.
But, yesterday showed me differently. Thanks to my special someone, of course<3
We weren’t exactly on good terms during the few days before 2/14 hit. Shit happened, words were said. Normal relationship stuff.
We were both heated afterwards, we couldn’t even talk to each other.
But, I still wanted to make Valentine’s Day special for her. Because I love her and she really deserve to be treated the best.
I remember telling Jimmy and Nick that we were gonna spend all of Sunday going out to buy stuff for our girlfriends. It’s kinda funny how those were my two best friends growing up, and now we’re all dating at the same time. ‘Cause we’re big boys now. Well, except for Jimmy. That asshole didn’t pick up his phone.
So me and Nibblez went to Acme to look for flowers. I swear, there were about 20 guys there buying flowers for their girlfriends. Some 12 year old kid walked there all the way from his house. And there was this really, old guy too. I guess you’re never too young or old to have love for someone.
Nick bought a bouquet and some chocolate and I decided to get one yellow rose, a set of roses in a vase, and a box of chocolate. Sounds pretty random, but there’s a reason why I bought all of those things.
The morning of Valentine’s Day, I was a cock I admit, not a good way to start it off. But, as soon as I saw my Valentine in school (bumming it out) I gave her the yellow rose and the chocolate and gave her a big hug. I remember it was right then that she smiled and all the tension of the weekend went away.
We had our normal routine, we went to my locker so I could load and unload my shit and then we went to our usual spot in the science hallway. Our little nook. I don’t remember what we said, but I remember we had this little tickle fight and she snuck this cute note into my bookbag.
In homeroom, she got balloons and a bear that I ordered the week before. I remember laughing at her when I saw her in the hallway with them. She was smiling so hard, and it looked like the three balloons were gonna make her float away. Great sight. lol.
Now, I’m gonna skip to after school. All day, I kept reminding her that there was still one more gift I had to give her and it was waiting in my car. Right when the last bell rung, she ran to my car and peeked through the window. And she saw the roses in the vase, she smiled and laughed a little when she saw them. We got in the car and I gave her the note that came with the flowers. I remember her smiling really hard and saying “Awwww.” That moment made me happy, I felt that all my hard work had paid off, all I wanted to do was make her happy and smiley. In the note, I had something like
Yellow rose - the friendship that brought us closer together. Which is why you got this at the beginning of the day.
Red rose - the love that we have now. The love that I never wanna lose.
It ain’t e-z bein’ cheezy. (;
We were planning to take her home first to drop off all the balloons, and flowers, and stuff, but there was this accident that blocked us from getting there. So, we drove back to my house, made a banging ass pizza, coconut macaroons, and watched TV for about a half an hour.
I had to drop her off at her house afterwards, ‘cause we weren’t sure if her dad was coming home. I kinda wanted to spend the whole day with her, but I understand how it is. But about five minutes after I left, she texted me and said her dad wasn’t coming home. So, I made a u-turn right on back to her house.
We watched Vampire Sucks with some people, and fell asleep in my arms. Corny corny corny. At one point, her head almost rolled off but I caught it. ‘Cause, my head’s always in the game.
After everyone left, we decided to just chill alone for a bit. We talked and cuddled for the rest of the night, and I jetted out of her house when her dad came home.
It was a day that I don’t want us to forget. Which is why I wanted to post it all on here. So in a while, we can look back on this love-filled day. (and due to the fact that I know she loves reading long posts that have to do with her.) lol.
But, overall. My goal was to just make her smile and be happy. 'Cause she deserves it more than anyone I know.
Sonnita Kem, I love you. I learned to like Valentine’s Day because of you. I hope we spend many more together, babygirl.Sweeeet buggaboolove<3